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written on the 28.august.08


well..hey ya..
hmm..
soorie fe rnot been updating my blog recently..
well..my 'N/O' level is comin..and im freaking stressed up..
omg..i dun noe what i will be for the the next coming years?!...
n level is next week....Ouh damn..Betta study yao...
well...ill just pray to (allah) that i will get betta results for this coming series..

One things that realii irks mie when my mum side my bro n my sys more den mie..
i dun tynk i wanna tok here....
so...proceed...
my life now stressed up like an ass DAMMIT...
Friendship? Bestfren?ii dun noe if she will still remember mie when i get out from this skewl..cos u noe todae its like the last day having lesson in the class ..and we dun haf to go to skewl for lessons..but indeed Next week we have to cum for our 'N' LEVELS!!!!!!!!!!!argh!!
best fren thingy was like 70/100..Nort So perfect yet..Cos shes behaving weird lately?! as in..Today was like Happy2 wif mie..Den next day like as if im tokin to the wall...WEIRD right?!..
But after all it was alite our friendship is becoming closer But not like the last tyme..i miss the old pass then THIS NOW...urgh!!
About systers ES? well..Perfectly fyne now..im gratefull...
no more fites k girls...love2 hearts2...im goin away after december 29...so tc ya..still remember u girls r always in my heart..Dun eva Sombong2 kalao nampak kat laur oteyh..Eeca(bebel),zie2(Vira ng),Yana Isti(YBP),Miiya,NadoDy NAdo,Ayra(miemo)(Sen)...

so now..what im gonna sae is that..IM FREAKING SCARED..N/O LEVEL XIAOW!!!
urgh!!
wish mie luck oiiiii!!DOA SKRG!!!


Written on the 16.August.2008 ..FRIDAY
TIME:12.48 AM(midnight)

let me tell u this...
im sure everyone knows how bestfren realii works out?
n im sure..101% in this world had their own bestfren of their own..
ouh fer shure..you will love ur bestfren ryte...

so lets cut it shOt Shall wee?!

im ana..okeyh u noe ryte..of cos its my blog ..durh..(LAME)
ouhk..well...i gort this 'BESTFREN' of my own that i realii kaire..
i jus dun wan to mention hur name..
im sure peeepx hu noe mie will noe my truly bestfren is

so well...
as i can see that this dae..im far out to crazy tinking bout all this friendship tingy.ii dun noe if she eva realise or sit in the corner tinking about our friendship..i dun tynk she wil do that?!..i jus tynk that her love as a friendship for mie is fading like a burning ashes tat flew from air to air..i dun doubt this pretty tough to tink bout our friendship....But its not realii that UNSATISFACTION..
Im here born in this world with a full hopes n a BIG dream.. A desire to bie who i realii wanna bie foreva...
Family,Fizana And hur..i need to clarified things out..but i noe..this friendship will neva work out this way...
Im just too streesed up day by day im FREAKING OUT BY THIs Stresstasy that surronds my mynd like spinning a turnado...

i dun noe how to make hur happy as my bestfren...
i jus dun had the love of a friendship animore from hur....i dun noe what she wan me to bie ..And what does she want from mie to make this friendship realii works...

i dun fynd 'hur' tt i use to noe...i cn sense that she becoming more rebel when interms of seeing mie often..Am i a nasty bitch that laid on a streets To YOU...If i am..im soriie to make u feel embarrased or ashamed for myself..
i jus dun tynk that ur promises are all true....You give me high hopes to justified your promises...but now..the promises r all for the sake of talking?!
but wheres the action..
Words Are Louder More Den Action as i can sae..Truly i dun noe waat cn i do now?
im just sitting here typing with tears rolling down my cheeks....

What cn i sacrifice more for hur?!..You See..i used to hur bestfren that she always showered with friendship love..im not askin hur to stick wif mie 24/7...?!....
she is just NOT HUR...And the worst thing..She will neva REALISE hur own MISTAKE....
must i judge hur by hur deeds.....!!!!???

What more cn i do?!tell mie Y u cn't bie True...?!...Am i just a damn ass Bitch disturbing ur Happy lyfe state now?! ,,What more cn i do my dear bestfriend..i need the truth to be on mie?!Do shoot it....?!...i always pray for the seek of our friendship EVERYDAY...A million of tymes i would jus pray for u to bie like ur ownself senses....im not askin u to bie BAD....im just askin u y must u put mie aside in an empty rows ....

sometyme i cn feel that my lyfe is TIMELESS..Im rushing for something that i wish that i cn get but somehow i realise that the thing that i want,i will never get it ..
Am i bringing Curse to every people Good deeds....!? im sure im not....ryte?!....
i awalys showered u with friendship love even if u laid a blazing fire on mie, i just stood dere....Tell mie y all this while u haff change!? ur giving mie high hopes to trust u....y u lied the way u do?!

My heart has froze for a certain period now...im just cnt take this hot air striking mie now..it realii hurts mie pretty GOOD...
Even though u haf change...
just read this in mynd...
im not askin for anytynk bestfriend..
You noe that i truly hearts u bestfriend..i dun noe what more cn i do now?!...im speechless........i have waited for so long jst to see u smile bck again..but it turn out NOTHING.....
No matter what....theres space in my heart that Called BESTFRIEND And that is YOU...
No one will neva replace u...i just hope we could bie like the old us we use to noe...
im just hurt by ur promises.....



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